Beachparty I

After some sleep, I had to catch up with C. I just had to know how his night had been. It had been kind of weird and kind of out of control...
After that Menno got thrown out, he and C had tried to enter The Harmony. But not just through a backdoor. No they had to climb up to the building and wanted to enter via the personnels restroom. Menno had done this before with success and C copied it easily. Too bad for them one of the bartenders was just in the room and heard something outside. He went down and got the manager and one of the security guys (John...). It was a final exit for both of them. Or not... John had text C that he wouldn't punish him, but for Menno: entry was now prohibited for at least two months. C would try anything to get rid of Menno's punishment. So he was texting John all day, to reduce it. He succeeded, but John wouldn't give in entirely: just one month... But that wouldn't do! Cause this night there would be a beachparty, and we couldn't miss it! C and Menno would give it a last shot: apologize to the manager...

"But where have you been last night?" C asked. I told my story and C wasn't surprised. I reached the point about the used condom and then I realised.... Condom???Condom!!! I had totally forgotten about that thing! So that would mean... it was still in the pocket of my coat... I ran up to my coat to check it, and yes there it was. I was very careful with holding it. "Ah grose," C said,"that thing has been inside of you..." I looked disgusted and threw it away somewhere in my room, but not the litterbin...

C and I wanted to have a special text printed on our shirts for the beachparty. First we had to find the shirts, which went really quick. We stopped by Tim to have a short chat with him. And then we had to hurry, cause now we had to find Menno. So that we could go to The Harmony, together with him.

#1 Crush II

When we arrived in the alley, a kiss was the most obvious thing you could think of. "Wanna come with me?" Frank asked me. I was in doubt and Frank noticed, because I wasn't responding. "Did Jonathan said something to you...?"He asked. "No," I said,"it's just that I don't know if this is the right thing to do.""You should do what feels right." Oi... that was pretty painful. Frank knew how much he meant to me and he knew that eventually I would come along with him. But because of that last sentence he would test me. I had two choices: be strong or be weak. ... Afortunately Frank is my weakness. I would do evertything for him. How bad can you be in love!? I could tell this was a worse case.

We got interrupted by Jonathan and Wesley. Both were completely drunk. Jonathan kept saying Frank should take me home. I actually wanted him to leave and a few minutes later he did.

Frank and I were by ourselves again. "Maybe it's better if you're not coming with me." Damn! It was so typical! I just wanted to say 'yes' and then he says something like this! So now I have tos ask him to come with him, to beg him to come along with him. Forget it! "Maybe it is,"I said. "Do want to come?" Frank asked me. Another shitty question. "Yeah, it's ok," I said but scratched back:"but..." Again I was doubting. "You know you can decide for me," I said. And so he did and went to his place...

When we were at his home, Frank asked me to be quiet: his mom was home too of course. We walked on to the kitchen and took off our shoes. Now the party could start. It began with some heavy kissing, that's how we went to the livingroom. We found a comfortable seat on the couch. Clothes were flying around and everything went pretty quick. It all felt pretty good, cause I still loved Frank. It just felt right: the kisses, his body, to please him. It was different than the time with Thom, cause with Thom the sex is about lust. But Frank's different, there's more feeling and love hanging in the air. Thom doesn't even like to kiss, just because we actually can't stand each other. But Frank was different...
It was quiet and we were staring at each other. It was all very exciting. We went on for a while until Frank reached his 'top'.
I looked upon my watch. Damn it was 4.30! I got dressed real quick and talked with Frank for a while: about his work. I noticed Frank's card as I took on my shoes. He had a terrible last name! Well at least I could hate something about Frank now.
We kissed goodbye. "could you dump this for me please?" Frank asked. He was holding the used condom in his hands. "That's ok," I said. I took it, it was pretty disgusting, cause I was thinking where we just used it for. You could see the condom was filled. It was disgusting... Ah fuck it! I put it in the pocket of my coat. "See you next time." I said and left...

I was so tired and again a little bit depressed, cause Frank and I would never feel the way for me as I do for him. Menno was right all the time. Frank's a drug. The moment you use it, you feel great, but afterwards you feel miserable! Plus I lost the bet six times now! I was way too tired to think long about it. Hmmm... sleep....

#1 Crush I

It was Friday. C and I had a lot of making up to do with my mom, so we cleaned up the entire house to earn a night out. After a long discussion mom would let us go, of course we had to be home on time.
First I would go to Dennis to book our vacation, Isabelle phoned that she couldn't make it, because of her grandmother. At Dennis' we couldn't find a perfect date for our vacation. Everyone had different things to do! So we ended up listening to some music, till Dennis' mom kicked us out. It was time to go to The Harmony.
Again it was a great party out there. Oh God... Frank was there too! Don't lose it, I said to myself. But was I able to be as strong as last week? We would see. John was amazingly enough really kind to me. I was having the greatest time!
I was in line for the toilets and C came running down the stairs with his coat on. "Where are you going!?" I yelled at him. "Menno got thrown out by John!" he said, "If he's gonna play like this, I'm outta here!" And he left. I didn't understand! John would never throw Menno out without a good reason. John came down the stairs. I asked him what had happened. "He smashes a glass on the floor. So I told him he could clean it up or go home. What he did was just stand there and look arrogant upon me." I thought John was right, but Menno was probably drunk. I was having such a great time, so I didn't wanna leave.
I was dancing downstairs when all the sudden Jonathan walks up to me. I really didn't want to see him around me, so I avoided him. The Harmony was pretty empty by now. Frank came up to me to have a chat and a little dance. Jonathan interrupted us. I was fed up with it and wanted to leave when Jonathan said: "Yeah Frank likes 'em that way." He was talking about my breasts. I walked away but Jonathan stopped me. Would it be possible for him to say just one useful word? Frank left us and left me alone with Jonathan. I stayed, cause he started off te right way: "I know... I'm a huge asshole..." OK I could see Jonathan was drunk, but I kept listening. He went on: "And I know I've been a real jerk to you. That night at InCasa... I shouldn't have done that."I nodded and saw flashbacks from that night. "I just want to say... I'm sorry... for that one night... and being such an ass." I was so glad to hear this, Jonathan apologized! Ok he was drunk, but still it were apologies and they came from Jonathan! "But you have to understand," he went on, "Frank's my best friend! He deserves the best, I don't want him to have some dumb slut. But I can tell you are really trying hard, inspite of all that shit! I can apreciate that... plus... your boobs." Ok he could have left the last thing out, but it made me laugh for a second. "Well," I said, "I do care a lot about Frank, more than you can imagine. And I just want him to be happy, whether it's with or... without me." I was watching Frank when I said these words... yeah I still had an amazing crush on him! Jonathan responded: "That's what I wanted to hear." I forced a smile, cause Frank and I, that was never gonna happen. Frank joined us again and this time Jonathan left us. Frank explained me why Jonathan was always so rude to people, bad childhood and stuff like that. I said it was alright and Frank suggested to go home. I thought it was a good idea.
I was downstairs waiting for Frank. Jasper was busy sweeping the floor. I went up to him, cause he was staring at me and Frank. "Hey Jasper!" I said extermely happy. "Hi..." He said. "Jasper," I said, "I still think you're sweet! But you're always so unkind to me." Jasper had to laugh. I went on: "and you know, of all the guys I've kissed, you're the best kisser! But now I'm going home with Frank. I gave you up to John." Jasper didn't understand I word from the last thing I'd said. John was shouting from the balcony: "He you! Go home with Frank!" I looked up to my hot Franky and said goodbye to Jasper. Together with Frank I left the bar. It was obvious we would go to the alley near Fandango's...

Just Chillin'

Well I'd lost the bet 4 times now...

I got home and C had, as I prospected, skipped the first hours off school. I phoned mom immediately, and I was right. She was really pissed at me. I went to C's room to catch up with him. We always talk about what happened last night. I told C about my night with Thom. C told me that Louis was after my mom, so C had to call Ruud to save my mom from Louis. My god what a night...And because I'd already lost 4 times, I thought a fifth time couldn't harm. So I told C about the bet.

Lost 5 times now... too bad. I took a shower and went to school and of course to tell Menno about my night with Thom.

Third Time's A Charm II

It was time to go to have a snack. Louis was hitting on my mom... C got a text from Thom, which said I could stop by. I wanted to do that. But before I left the group I told C that John really reaaly liked him. Oh God...

I stopped at a house on Broadway while the rest of the group left me. Thom was waiting for me at the door. We took two stairs up and finally reached his room. His room was small and a little bit of a mess. We took place on the couch. He offered me a drink, but I wasn't thirsty. We chat a little bit, like we always do, but we got interrupted by a phonecall. It was C: mom was wondering where I was hanging out. Of course only C knew where I was. "I'll be up in a sec," I said. I also said that C couldn't hurt John, that he had to take him easy. I gave Thom his phone back. He looked strange upon me, cause he also knew John very well. Again Thom offered me a drink. Well if he keeps asking... I asked for a glass of water. Thom said I couldn't have water cause it tastes like nothing. So he dropped in a little bit of weird stuff. He called it "healthy", but when I had a nip the drink tasted awful! Thom was laughing and said I could leave it on the table. He drank it, so I knew there wasn't anything strange in it. "I have to take a shower," Thom said,"wanna come with me?" I was in doubt. Showers are so tempting! I wanted that shower too bad, so I said "yes". Thom got the towels and leaded me to the bathroom.
The shower was fantastic! And Thom and I were all over each other so we left the shower and went to bed. It was a fantastic night and Thom asked me to sleep over. It was kind of hard, cause it was a single bed, but it was alright for me. It wasn't usual that Thom let me sleep over. I fell asleep, but a few hours later I woke up. It was already morning. Thom was also awake. The nice time was over now. The alcohol had probably left his blood now, cause Thom wasn't mr. Nice Guy anymore. It's typically Thom... flirt with me, say sorry for all the things he's done to me. We have sex to make it up and the next thing you know, he's acting al weird again...

Thom left the bed and got dressed. I was watching him. I had to get out of here. Mom would be pretty mad at me for not coming home this night. I also got dressed and said goodbye to Thom, who was watching TV and wasn't interested in me at all. "I'll probably see you in The Harmony..." he said. I laughed and left.

Third Time's A Charm I

Tuesday was a normal day, for once that was just fine... C and I discussed his problem with John, but that was about it.

Wednesday started of easy: first school and hockey in the evening. After hockey diner and then a surprise! Mom wanted to go on the "bartour" which was going on here in Leiden. Cause it was some special week here. I would have the first five hours off school so I could come along, but I only wanted to come if C could come along too. It was everything or nothing, so C could come. After one drink in "The Talkhouse" we went to The Harmony. C text John he was on his way.
It was quiet in The Harmony. A band was playing and Rens was tending bar. Louis was also there. Mom introduced herself to him. Oh God... if she would introduce herself to John, he would be able to say some nasty things about me and what then... ! I was terrified!
John entered and mom, of course, introduced herself to him. I was worried. Thank God C was there for me. It was already haunting in my head: John telling my mom what kind of nasty things her daughter had been doing. I was glad when they both took place on our table. So I could listen to what they were saying. And after long talking the question was there: "Are my kids acting good around here?" "He is, he said,"but she!" He pointed at me. Of course mom was shocked, but John had showed his good heart and said he was just kidding.
After a lot of drinks on John mom said:"John is such a great guy! I gonna toss Ruud out and get John in." I got nausiated of the idea. And I looked disgusted. John told me to act normal. I was fed up with it and decided to sit somewhere else, but not for long.
John was inviting us over to his place this summer and the night was doomed to turn out pretty fucked up.
All the sudden I saw Jordy and Thom, they were standing in front of the window. Rens said I couldn't let them in, cause it was after one. I went to the door to talk to Thom. He invited me over for a drink. I wasn't able to phone him, so I gave him C's number and Thom gave his to C.
I went back inside, where mom and John were still in a conversation with each other. I went to have a chat with the band.
After a while John came up to me and said that he thought I was a real nice girl, but that we started off the wrong way. I nodded, but actually I didn't like the fact my first impression with John was a wrong one. We took place at the bar. He told me he was crazy about C. I understood, but I knew C wasn't gay! But I didn't tell that to John. I tried to give him some hope. "You're gonna find a guy! Really you are!" But John was a little bit down. I gave him a hug. He told me I was a sweetheart and I thought the exact same about him. John was a sweetheart and he deserved a sweet man!

Bi-Sexual Borders

Sunday was one big boring day. Ok hockey was fun, but it was the only fun thing that day. I again forgot my backpack at The Harmony! I would have to go pick that up...

On Monday my sister phoned me. She asked me if I would join her for a hockeymatch in the big Amsterdam Stadium! Of course I wanted to come! Cedric would also come along.
Once we got to Amsterdam C and I were acting all crazy. After a 5-5 match we went back to Leiden. There C and I had to dump the goalie bag. We cycled it over to my dad's and left it there. Let's go to the Harmony to pick up my stuff, I thought. So C and I went to the Harmony. It was half past eleven now. There were a couple of people in The Harmony and I knew them all. I immediately ran up to Rens to ask if he had found my backpack. Immediately people started to yell:"Hey how rude of you! You don't even say hi anymore!" I felt uncomfortable. So after I said hi to everyone and got my bag back I wanted to leave. Otherwise mom would really freak out, cause it was a schoolnight. "Hey those people ordered!" John said. C and I looked at each other, but neither of us had ordered a drink. Still there were two beers standing on the bar waiting for us. Ah one drink couldn't harm, but of course one became two etc...
C and I got in a conversation with John. He was talking about his bi-sexuality. It was a serious and interesting conversation. At one point it became even more interesting, cause John was going to tell me WHY he had been mad at me. He said:"You take all of my guys!" I was surprised. "Your guys? Who did I take from you?" I asked. "Jasper," was his answer. I didn't even know John had a crush on Jasper. But I made a deal with John that I would never do anything with Jasper anymore. I said he was also taking my guys from me. John was curious about it. I named Julien and John pretended he had never heard of that name, but he probably knew who I meant. I gave him Jules phonenumber. Now I had taken my revenge on Julien too! I would send a bi-sexual after him! Hah!
John said that with kissing Jordy I made a huge mistake. I would have screwed it up with Louis. Cause Jordy and Louis were buddies and I was taking Jordy from Louis. John said I'd better apologize to Louis, meanwhile he would show C the backdoor of The Harmony. I apologized to Louis. Louis said that John shouldn't be selling that much crap. But John had assured me that I didn't want to get in a fight with two evil faggets.
All the sudden mom was standing in front of the window. No kidding it was 2 o'clock already! But before we left I had to confess to John he was the hottest fagget I had seen. I said that if he wanted to hook up with my little brother, he had my permission. On one condition: I could have Frank, without getting in any kind of mess with him. John agreed.

At home C was in total panic. He showed me the text messages John had sent him. "He even tried to kiss me!" C said. I was rolling on the floor from laughing. John was now after C!